Sunday, December 13, 2009

I'm Back

Where does the time go? It's been nearly a year since I posted anything, and so much has happened. I passed my LPN program, and am now a practicing LPN at a nursing home. Goodbye cell phone repair! The "baby" is nearly 3, and going through a phase which I can only liken to demonic possession.

It's strange to say to people now, "I am a nurse." I don't feel like one, yet people look to me for answers, and trust me to take care of them. It's hard. I've seen death now. I've cared for people who were dying, and regretted not making them more comfortable, or letting the day get away from me without contacting the doctor for stronger pain relief. I've seen some really shitty nurses and some really great ones. I'm trying not to be shitty. I love most of my patients, but some I just can't bring myself to even like. I feel lost at work often, like I'm just playing a role, and trying to convince people I know what I'm doing. I think I know, but there's still so much to learn.

I was accepted into the RN bridge program, so that begins the second week of January. After the year of hell I went through to get this far, it freaks me out to know I'm going back. I bought my books last week. I dragged 50lbs of books through the icy tundra back to the car with the little one screaming that he wanted a piggy back ride. I know, always have to play second to Mommy's school.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Back to School Blues

I realize I didn't blog once during my first semester of school. It was busy, but it went well. Ended up getting straight A's in fact.

I've been trying to really suck every bit of life I can out of this vacation, and now it's almost time to go back.

The baby is not a baby anymore, but a toddler. I used to hate toddlers. Really couldn't stand them. I think it's their resemblance to crusty snot covered Oompa Loompas, combined with the smell of graham crackers, spoiled milk, and poop. My toddler of course, is a joy who seems much too smart for his age. He'll be 2 next week, and already knows how to count to 20 (who cares if he pronounces seven "settie"), and can recognize and name all his shapes and letters.

My mom has decided to try out sobriety, and has made it nearly 6 months so far. That removes some of the family worry distractions I dealt with last year, so I'm grateful for that. I don't have time for crises, whether they be my own or someone else's.

This semester should be interesting. I have a 4 week rotation of pediatrics followed by 4 weeks OB, with mental health nursing running over the course of the 8 weeks. After that I have 8 weeks of med/surg. Honestly, I'm not sure what "med/surg" entails, but it makes you sound really professional when you say med/surg, and I'll figure it out when I get to it.

The most frequently asked question I get is, "when are you done?" I'm not really sure how to answer it though. The LPN program is over at the end of June, I have the option to bridge into the RN program to gain my RN Associates Degree after that. I think you have to work for a year as an LPN before you can bridge. The RN portion would be another year and a half or so. People really don't want to hear all that, and as soon as you say LPN their eyes glaze over. I really need to come up with a more succinct answer for that one.

I think I've stalled enough, time to read 6 chapters about the diseases and conditions of Oompa Loompas.